So do not fear, for I am with you; do
not be dismayed, for I am your God. I
will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right
hand. Isaiah 41:10
The journey
has not been easy, and it is not yet over, but God has brought me far.
It was hard
to go from being someone who was always on her way somewhere – by car or by
plane, rarely stopping-- to being someone who got up in the morning for perhaps
a half-hour, then returned to bed, hoping that would make it easier to breathe.
During the
most difficult times, we fought fear. There
was no reason to go to the hospital – what could they do? I was unable to take the drug which would
kill the mold in my lungs; it had been stopped by the doctors due to its effect
on my heart. Oxygen didn’t help. The only peace we had was knowing I was
completely in God’s hands—upheld in His righteous right hand to be exact.
My husband
Jack – incredibly skilled in construction ministry and used to being able to
fix anything—had to battle helplessness.
He sat on the edge of the bed and held my hand, he read healing
scriptures to me; he prayed me through the most difficult breathing times. He’d wake up multiple times each night to be
sure I was still breathing.
And I was,
only because God was holding me in His hand.God provided a place for us to live near the construction ministry project He has given Jack to do, so we left Atlanta and are now closer to my physician. My doctor agreed we were fighting this on physical and spiritual levels. What better way for satan to stop me from shining light on one of his favorite industries –sex trafficking of children -- than to make it difficult to breathe.
He hasn’t
won. God gives me the strength to
continue increasing awareness of sexual exploitation; in fact, He has given me another
opportunity to serve Him—speaking about pornography as the gateway to exploitation
and how it’s all over His Church.
Greater is He
who is in me, than he who is in the world.
